The Balancing Act

Some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well have not lived at all - in which case, you fail by default.
— J.K. Rowling

I forgot to take my son to Kindergarten Round Up yesterday. Yelp... big mom-fail. 😔  Let’s just call this Full-Transparency Wednesday. 

Luckily, the school called to ask us if we still planned on coming (so embarrassing), and we made it without missing too much. Adler was so incredibly brave and forgiving of his mama (#secondchildproblems), who somehow didn’t have it on the overfilled calendar.  

I then spent the day feeling terrible in every area of my life.  A year ago, I wouldn’t have missed that big moment on the calendar. We would have gone to breakfast before, and he would have been prepared to let go of my hand and be taken away for the two hour registration process. 

But that didn’t happen. 

Staci and I had an “in-office” day scheduled to double down on some big projects we need to complete.

But that didn’t happen. 

Our project list has exploded in the last 8 months, and as amazing as it has been, it has also been a huge adjustment for our family dynamic. I have the world’s BEST mom and mother-in-law who move mountains to help me with preschool pickups and bus drop off and all the things for which I can’t be there. I have a husband that never bats an eye when I have to run out the door for meetings just as he’s walking in and is my biggest cheerleader. I wouldn’t be able to do any of this without them, but the truth is, it’s hard letting go of those things.  I will be the first to admit that I’m not good at asking for help, and I’m learning daily that not asking for it is my biggest mistake. 

A year ago, I wouldn’t have missed Kindergarten Round Up, but I also didn’t have this lady pictured by my side. I didn’t have someone to keep the ball rolling on projects while I sped off to school. I didn’t have someone to say, “Girl, you have no idea how much I forgot when my kids were little” and “You’re not failing, you’re growing”. I didn’t have someone to push me to want more for Inland and for myself. 

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I hope my kids can look back and forgive their mama for her failures as she followed her dream and know how much I love them. I hope my clients can forgive me as I juggle the balancing act of mom/designer and know how much I love them, too. 

I say all of this in case you’re feeling it, too. And I’m asking for advice on how you make it all fit in a 24 hour day? How do you do this mom life without forgetting it all?

And how can my baby boy be going to Kindergarten already?